This is getting worse..

" This story turns to a real fairytale. Our love story. A beautiful one it is, yet a really sad one.. "

It's spoiled.. And I still put all the blame on u. I just wanna tell u that I feel sorry and regret, from the deepest of my heart. It's just me and my provoker attitude. And I'll change it.

Now u have to struggle to get your name back. I know I won't be of much help, but I will still help you. I'll stand by your side. Not by sympathy, not by conditions. It's just because I love u.. And when I heard this, I can't hold my tears even if I tried to.. I just..feel really stupid of all that I did. But now, I won't be handful. I'll support u, I'll chase your conditions, that I will do. Just relax.. I won't leave you before you leave me. That's me and my promise. I'll run for you.. And I won't stop even if u keep running. I'll make our condition stay as nice and sweet as normal. That's all I can do to support u.. ^^

I trust u, hun. I trust u'll take us pass this..

Wanna do a deadly krump..

I don't know anymore which is right, or which is wrong. I just wanna krump and krump, but I don't have any energy. Maybe I just have to forget. Maybe I just have to become distant. I wanna break free, break free from my own stupid life. I wanna go to place where no one is there. And then, only wait for a small pure light to come. A transparent light with no plastics, a transparent light that I can see deep in. And then I'll be pure. Pure to that transparent light.

Screwed up.

Just screwed up. Hope tomolo will go back to normal. If can, not to normal, but to the old times, to the past wen it's still fresh and cute. Just shut up..

Faking, off.

"I should be grateful of everything. For having good friends, for eating good meals, for having good future plans, for having nice days, for being a silent but crazy person, and for having U.."

Ungghh.. Holiday is near and I won't go anywhere. At least I walk around Surabaya, but wif no fwenz. They all go holiday :( But nevermind la, since I entered high school, I don't hangout wif fwenz often like in middle school, so I'm getting used to it.. =o

Tomolo will have my small stand at skul. Me, Edward, n' Onel [CH3^^] will run a small cafe wif drinks. We'll sell Red Fantasy [Red syrup, beer], Orange Fantasy [Orange juice, beer], Icy Choco Crunch [Chococino, beer, cereals], n' Iced Lemon Tea. It's just them, but whatever. Actually we have other kind of drinks that Onel n' Edward bought yesterday to mix, but we haven't mix them. So we sell them regulary, no mixing.
Huff.. Just hope that it'll be a wonderful day..
Silent me, rush on. I dun wanna be a really crazy guy like usual.. Just wanna be a calm guy for a while.. I'm tired of acting so childishly to cheer friends :/

Love You Promised..?

If I can only see
That your love for me is not forever
Then I will always be free
From these chains of love you bind me to
Oh baby baby please
Won't you save your kisses for another
'Cause I won't be a fool
For the love you promise
But won't deliver

I'm just a simple boy
Who is hooked to your sweet charm
But the love you promised
Will never be here in my arms

Oh baby baby please
Won't you leave me all alone now honey
Here's my one last kiss
If you can't make up your mind now it's good bye

Then again,
I'm just a simple boy
Who is hooked to your sweet charm
But the love you promised
Will never be here in my arms

Sweet.

Today we met again, after a whole month. It's really quite silly. So many changes occured. Especially my hair, it's so silly now, and I'm so shy :(
I like how we spend this day. I just simply like it.
It's a sweet kiss you gave me, like last nite when I asked a sweet kiss for my Christmas present. U made it a reality.. :)
I love u, no matter how our distance looks.
I love u, no matter what u do to me.
I love u, no matter u don't love me anymore.
I just simply love u.

The Soul To Dance..

I don't really understand, why do I find it stressful and boring to dance. How can I get bored so fast? I don't wanna lose the soul to dance.. Or have I lost it? I'm really tired now.. I dunno should I dance or not. D-phobia told me that I have to decide now. Should I become a dancer or not. If not, just quit dancing.

Quit..dancing..? No way. This is one of my talent, and I think I can't live in peace without it. Everybody knows I dance. But.. If I think like this, it means: I dance because of popularity guarantee. NO! That is a wrong purpose of dancing. I don't wanna dance like this.. Dance is just like everyday routine.

Back then, when I still a kid in streetdance, I dance with feeling. I dance according to the beat, and without a skill. That's what makes me enjoy the feeling of dancing. The feeling of expressing the music's soul with moves. I wanna dance, just to express. Express my feeling, express the music.. And with that, I get the soul of dancing.

But now, I dance for many reasons. Actually I think I'm skilled enough, even though I still want to learn streetdance again. That's what adds arrogance in my dance.. I dance mostly to impress people, not to express anymore. And that gives all the bore.. STOOOOPP!!!!




Decide..
I REALLY WANNA DANCE.
I WANNA DANCE AND DANCE WITH SOUL.
I WANNA EXPRESS ALL MY EMOTION THROUGH IT.
I WANNA MAD AND BE MAD AT MY DANCE[Krump], I WANNA BE COOL AND ACT COOL AT MY DANCE[Pop], I WANNA FEEL SO FLY AND DANCE JOYFULLY[Lock], I WANNA LET OUT AND DECODE THE SMOOTH MUSIC'S SOUL TO MY DANCE[Groove].
I LIVE WITH THIS FORTUNE AND TALENT GIVEN.
THERE'S NO WASTING THE RESPONSIBILITY.
THERE'S NO WASTING THE SOUL.
HUGE BUCKS, BONELESS BODY, DANCE MACHINE. I'LL REACH THAT STATE.
AND I'LL GIVE IT BACK TO HIM WHO OVERALL GIVES ME EVERYTHING.

I DANCE TO EXPRESS..I'LL GET THE SOUL.

New Moon, the More Brilliant Version of My Story.

New Moon n' my story isn't that much different.
Sum1's here to protect me from the underground organization. And that sum1's promised to keep me safe. I always seek for the care and I love that sum1 too. That sum1's really protective, and it seems like there's no safe area other than on that sum1's shoulder.. ^^

The difference is, that sum1 WON'T EVER LEAVE ME. It's always me and me..but I won't do that again, promise.. ^^

If u watch New Moon, I'm Bella.. And my sum1's the Edward.. Haha
Crazy, huh ?? But it's real ^^ Really got the feeling when watching the movie. I'm really the Bella, and that sum1's really Edward. A strong and romantic feeling.. ^^

Just smile.

Smile and relax. I love you and that's all I need to know. :)