Insomniac-Forced To Be.

Since Sunday I've been sleeping at 2 o'clock to study harshly for the last exam. I really wanna show that I'm not actually dumb, I just couldn't manage time well back then. Now just watch my scores when the result pop out >:)
1st Day - Math : Did it really nicely
2nd Day - Physics : Really nice as well. I became logical in this test and passed it well.
3rd Day - Chemical : Did it well. Made some mistakes because of lackness in logic.
Well I did the 3 science things well. This way I hope Pak Totok who doubts that I can enter IPA bite his lips. Look, world! The "Rei" is back ^^
Well tomorrow will be the last subject of science, Biology. It's assigned with Geography tomorrow, so I'm studying a ton right now.. Huahh my mind feels so full!! Arggh.. Jiayou, rei!!
After that will be other tests out of science but I still wanna keep studying like this.. My target is to achieve scores at least above 80, all subjects.
Sunday till yesterday I've been in a call with Onel every night to study together. It's really nice since we shared our blindness and helped each other. It really helped in the tests. :) But on the second day Onel went to sleep accidentally as usual and it's like outta mind to wake a sleeping Onel so I hung up the phone and study myself even though I got blinded in some things.
After school(Except today cuz tomorrow's subject is extreme) I always practice dance with my class's dance team for the Pekan Olahraga Sekolah Dance Competition. I use a concept of hiphop and ballet. But I don't do the ballet thingy.. Hahaha.. I just teach the ballet girls how to dance hiphop. Ticking, waving.. It's like nostalgia when I first tried to learn them.. ^^
Tomorrow at least I can take a break cuz the day after will be only Economy/Accountant n English. I can relax in English more, and study Economy n Accountant the most.
Well, just keep up in every subject and ask for God's help.. ^^

Dance. There's been some problem and errors. I work with RoboPop togeher to try to fix it to the right. But things seems to get more complex.. But me and him just try to look for the best way. Let's see what's coming next and focus in the fixing of this mess after UKK.. I don't want things to get worse too. I want a comfortable and solidarity in this team.. This second family.

Love. Ignoring interests. Hell with liking. Let's just enjoy high school :)

Money. Next month seems to be promising :)

Friends. Online friends and classmates are the best for now.

Health. Not really well cuz I sleep late. I try to handle it with vitamin C, Sangobion, Milo, and HiLo Teen.

Fashion. Gosh I'm fading from this thing. Let's only wear basketball shorts and tees.. Haha

Well, gotta continue studying! Let's pray for everyone to advance to the next grade with nice scores.. Amenn :3

THE SALTWATER ROOM by Owl City

I love Owl City's musics these days. I downloaded their songs a ton and they're all good. Their music's lyrics is always poetic and deep meaning..

I opened my eyes last night
And saw you in the low light
Walking down by the bay, on the shore
Staring up at the planes that aren’t there anymore
I was feeling the night grow old
And you were looking so cold
Like an introvert, I drew my over shirt
Around my arms and began to shiver violently before
You happened to look and see the tunnels all around me
Running into the dark underground
All the subways around create a great sound
To my motion fatigue: farewell
With your ear to a seashell
You can hear the waves in underwater caves
As if you actually were inside a saltwater room

Time together isn't ever quite enough
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we're apart, whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?
All the time, all the time

Can you believe that the crew has gone and wouldn’t let me sign on
All my islands have sunk in the deep, so I can hardly relax or even oversleep
I feel as if I were home some nights, when we count all the ship lights
I guess I'll never know why sparrows love the snow
We’ll turn out all of the lights and set this ballroom aglow


So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time.

Time together isn't ever quite enough
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time, all the time

Time together isn't ever quite enough
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time..

Run !

- High School Life -
These days my school were getting messed up. I chased so much of my retarded subjects. Yesterday after school I took the susulan Ekonomi and guess what. I scored 61. Dang! What a pity. So I must study for 2 Economy tests (Remidi UTS + Remidi UH3) n Remidi Fisika (I scored 25, which is the worst in class. EMBARRASSING.) So I tried to study last nite after the AOG Crew practice but I slept accidentally. This morning I hurried and rushed to study and I think I did it well. Thanks God.. ^^
Remembering me when I was in low school and middle school.. I was a smart and diligent student. In low school I will get afraid easily if my score is bad. In middle school I scored really good in tests and got 1st category to enter high school on 10th place of the whole 9 graders. Now look at me. Pitiful. I must study well and I afraid I din pass the tests.. I hope I can advance to XI Grade, Science class. Yes, I must! I won't wanna stay in X grade. If I get rejected from science and get thrown into social, it's OK. It means that it's my limit to divide the time for dance and school. But God, please help me again so I can enter science, if it's Your will.. I will study hard for the last tests. I don't wanna be a retarded Rei.

- Streetdance Life -
Let's see the kaleidoscope. So far I performed 15 times.

- PERFORMANCES.
1 - Pensi SMP Petra 5, 28 March 2009
Here is my first dance performance ever! I danced really enjoyfully. I thought to myself, "I'm cool" along the dance. Well, this was the first time I earned my crazy hobby, hip hop dancing. I love it and I won't forget the journey to this performance.. ^^

2 - Ribka's Touch Of Dream, 9th May 2009
My second performance in my Sis's Sweet 17 party.. Here, we practiced for only 2 hours. Danced with only 1 song. Embarrassing. Danced so "lebay"ly. But enjoyed it. Created SEN CREW. So happy that time :)

LM's Workshop, Krumpin' n Funk Style, August 2009. It's LM's workshop and I was so excited. I danced with fun and rythm. And I got the best 4 krumper award.. Me (4th), Juju (3rd), ?, Erick (2nd). This day was the first day I befriended Juju, and I din know Erick. Erick was a total stranger for me. I was so happy to get the award and decided to become a real krumper.. This was the history.

3 - Merlin's Sweet 17, August 2009
Same song with the last, changed choreography. Here, I met Takupaz Dance Crew for the first time and thought it's ordinary. I din know dance crews in the world out there. And battled with Diego and Leo. It's funny to think of it rite now. Haha..

4 - Petra 5's Competition, JMP (Jiwa Merah Putih), August 2009
Danced with the same choreography. Gosh! It's embarrasing. I still dance 'lebay'ly and disgustingly. I wouldn't dare to watch the video again now. It'll get creepy. Haha..

SEN Crew, in my management, got Ce Linda (Miss_B Minute) as a tutor.. But we only practiced once cuz we had no place to practice. And I looked for the place crazily..

5 - Ciputra's Event - Exotic Dance Competition, October 2009
Wow ! My 1st dance competition!!! Crazy. It makes me nervous like crazy. C Linda, Ko Leo, my big bro watched me. Wowie. Here I met a lot of streetdancers. TTP, and Frix! But I haven't recognize them. I just now Mia is in people's spotlight of having a great power. But I din even noe her name back then. I just know "a girl with curly hair". Haha.. I'm amazed with Fung2 too. He's a great streetdancer and he can break! Gosh. Here, I din dance with detail and nervous like crazy. Ce Linda told me to get optimistic..

6 - Worm, Petra 5's Christmas Event, December 2009
Danced with 3 person concept. K-pop song in. I got a little bored in dance but still searches for the reasons to dance.. Then here, danced but not really detail and still nervous..

Finally found SEN Crew's place to practice!!! Just have to manage well. But suddenly AOG Crew asked me to join them in reccomendation of Ce Linda. There's a little problem where I got in a fight with Ichel, but later on I joined and left SEN Crew.. Promised I'd manage them still, but I din do even until now..

7 - UPH Dance Competition - PHBE, January 2010
After a long time I din dance, I danced here. Really, I had fun learning some crazy concept. Here, in the first day I danced looking down and Ce Linda told me to be more optimistic. So in the second day I din really got nervous anymore and danced straight-faced.

Officially an AOG Crew member after Mike Rock's workshop. Ce Linda introduced me to LM that I'm a new member of it..

8 - Va-Mos Dance, 13 March 2010
Danced with AOG Crew for the 1st time! Here, I danced a little "lebay", low powered(for a member of AOG Crew), and not detail. I forgot the moves a little too. Here I realized I still need to learn a ton and then try to keep up with AOG Crew..

9 - Vitacimin Dance Competition, 29 March 2010
Wow, my 1st dance competition with AOG! Met a lot of real streetdancers and starting to know their world. Then I danced with low details and low power.. I got down and try to boost again.

10 - Loop Dance Comopetition, 30-31 March 2010
Here, I tried to dance with power and friends told me that's the way. But I should still crave for more power. I danced with low detail too. And in freestyle, I got nervous.. The 2nd day, final, I forgot the moves a lot in locking part.

11 - Venom Dance Competition, April 2010
Great, I danced with confidence but still lack of it in freestyle.. Details.. Uggh

12 - Petra Parade, April 2010
Danced with Petra 5 again! It's fun, really. Nice. Got close with Frix Crew starting here.

13 - HiLo Dance Competition, April 2010
Danced with Petra 5 again. Fun fun fun ^^ Here I supported TTP and Frix alot..

14 - AOG performance at Cito, May 2010
Danced for the first time with Betet. It's a nice dance and we had fun. I still lack of details..

15 - Adrenaline Dance Competition, May 2010
Well this is the latest. I danced with medium power, dunno why it feels lower than before. Maybe it's because i sleep late the days before.. And I still lack of details as Garry said. God please help me dance enjoyfully but with details.. Now I learn moves faster than I do back then. I never got nervous and it's fun to dance in front of people..
Well, I still need to get better a lot. I must have huuuge dream in this dance life..
HUGE DREAMS!

People sometimes have huge dreams but can never reach them.. Maybe it's their own fate. But maybe it's because they lack of confidence, and lack of hard work. But who knows what's really behind. I think it's not fair when someone works really hard, trusts God, but still din get their dream. But it's God's way, and it'll be just like that. What about my dance life? Will it get better and better? Yeah it will. But will I get to be like Kak Sem or even any other international streetdancers? Well.. I have to believe that I'll do. But people have their own limit. I must work extra hard to surpass my limit if it is to happen in my life.. Even now, look at me. I'm still really far from those TTP guys. With AOG crew member as well. I must run double times, even thousand times to chase and surpass them, really. Maybe it's painful to run and don't stop. But it's just the way.. Run and ignore the pain. Let's just believe. Someday.. ^^

If You Leave..

You think I'm so full of it, full of it
But I think I'm just fed up, baby
You think I can be so arrogant, arrogant
But I'm just tryna get keep my head up, baby

You think I procrastinate baby
But I think I'm taking my time
You think you need to leave
But I think I disagree, but

If you believe you'll do best without me
I'll let it go girl, it's over
But before we say good bye
Let's give it a try

If you leave then baby I'll leave
I'll let it go girl, it's over
But I have no doubt
We can work it out

Yeah, I think you're so full of it, full of it
You just don't know when to let up baby
I think you're so arrogant, arrogant
That you think you're so much better baby..

That I think it ain't healthy for me to judge..
You by your flaws and that's why I
Know I could criticize, but I put that aside
To focus on you and I

But if you believe you'll do best without me
Then I'll let it go boy, it's over
But before we say goodbye
Lets give it a try

If you leave then baby I'll leave
I'll let it go boy, it's over
But I have no doubt
We can work it out, yeah

Now if you wanna go
Baby then I'll let you go
And even though I'm tryna hold on
I can't if you don't

Now if you leave me you're gonna miss me
And I'm not saying that I'll be here waiting
Since we here right now
Instead of just walking out
Let's work to reach the point that I know we can be

But if you believe you'll do best without me
I'll let you go, it's over
It's over..
But before we say
Let's give it a try

If you leave then baby I'll leave..
I'll let it go, it's over..
I have no doubt
We can work it out.

If you believe you'll do best without me..
I'll let it go girl, it's over..
Before we say goodbye..
Let's give it a try.

If you leave then baby I'll leave..

Vacuum For Awhile.

8th-9th May 2010. WM University's Adrenaline Dance Competition.

# First Day
This day rawcks! I skipped school. And I went to Ichel's house in the morning. She just woke up and it's funny. And then I burned the song then we watched SYTYCD with "Ramalama Bang Bang" zombie dance. Wkwkwk.. And then we went to drop Juju, then PTC but all the shops are still closed as well as the hair extension salon. So we went to Nur Salon near Goci, which is directly beside my aunt's just opened-store and there was a party. Then I saw my mom and my sis and my big family so I ran inside the salon with face covered with my bag. But later my sis saw Ichel and I must greet the whole family ==" Luckily it isn't that long and Ichel got her hair extended with pink and white hair, and I got my hair waxed and it's nice :) Then we went to Cito where I met Ian, and Ranger was there as well then we bought purple and pink Sasha. And then got me n Erick's hair sprayed. My hair looks thousand nice! God this was a nice hair day. It happens rarely. Haha.. Then we danced. T-Point(Garry, Dewi, Tirza, and Beatrix) was there. Frateran was too. We got to big 5! Nice :) Then there was a little competition where we must run to search for "Fren"'s counter inside GoCi. Me and Ichel was a pair. Garry was with Dewi. Olga was with Andre. Then we ran inside and like crazy we searched for Fren Mobile Counter. Then after a long search.. A security told us that it's not Fren the mobile counter like we thought so, it's "Friend" Boutique! No wonder they gave us the clue "style"! Arrgghh.. Me and Ichel ran directly there, got the signature and went back. 2 x Rp. 25.000,- voucher to shop there. Not really nice ~_~

Then AOG went to Citraland to design our own costume. It's about us and our style. So every person has to design their own with the given color: pink, blue, green. Okay, my design was: Short left sleeve, long right sleeve, jumper, and radioactive-like style in the middle. I hope it'll turn out cool in 25 May ^^

Then we went to LM Homebase again to practice. After the practice we shared alot. It was really nice. Here, we know why we're not getting into Last Minute Street Crew. And why T din enter. And one by one must tell our own feeling in AOG. Then I told them that it's nice to be there, that even if I'm the foolest, they still wanna teach me. And Ce Linda insulted me about feeling I'm the foolest. I shouldn't feel that way. Then Erick, Chachia, and Juju told us about the story that they hid from me. The story of someone saying I came to ***'s club twice and that I practiced there and I entered their crew. What?? I never came to that place, I don't even know where it is. So here we know,, Many people is trying to separate us. Not only us, it's LMSC huge family. We must be aware, but keep nice 2 everyone. Still, I can't accept that she's saying that to my crew.. Lying such a thing about me. Slimy little snake.

We went to PTCin the night. I played with Ivan alot and we went home. (Yet again, I became a burden for Juju's dad) Before sleep, I practiced harshly for the final.

# Second Day.
After church, I went to practice at LM Homebase and good thing I din forget anything ^^ And we went to GoCi. There was that slimy little (i mean FAT) snake there. Then we danced and she acted so nice. It's nice that Mia, Dian, Anas came. :) There were those HBS guyz too. Then we went to PTC after. We went crazy like in a pub at Woof Woof. Took nice and cool photos a ton. Now wait for the upload.. We took the 1st place. It's really nice!!! Thanks God.. ^^ Keep humble, keep humble, and keep up the pace.. ^^
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Well that's yesterday.
Today I skipped school.
And I really wanna skip school again this Saturday cuz there was SBO Dance Competition, and Suri will made his last performance with Frix there.
I must competite too.
But it's Friday 9 p.m. till Saturday 3 a.m.
But I think my parents won't let me skip anymore. I skipped too much, and the following week will be UKK.
Arrrghh.. I wanna perform, I really wanna.
I wanna watch Frix again.
It's a big dance competition..
I hope I can perform.
There was another offer.
8 p.m. Tunjungan Plaza's Midnight shopping.
We were asked to perform there.
But then we won't meet those other streetdancers.
ARRGHH
God, please let SBO be my last performance before UKK.
I wish, I wish, I wish!
Then I'll go vacuum for 2 weeks..

Unupdated Updates.

1st May 2010. Freaked Me Out.
The night after HiLo Teen Dance Competition, I told my mom I'm spending my money to buy my own BB. I decided to buy Gemini since it's my own money. Then my mom told me why not buy then. And we went to Marina, there my mom bought me Javelin. Freaked me out! I didn't think it'll be this fast. I thought it'll be on August that I'll buy it with my own money. But now, for free and better edition.. Syalala~ Thank God!! He heard me :)

2nd May 2010. Job @ Cito.
AOG got a job from Juju's real far siblings. To perform in Cito's Hipermart Event. We performed twice. The 1st performance was with Betet. This was my first performance with Betet too. Nice. He's so funny like crazy and sexy! Haha.. (Remembered what we talked about the night before. That's nice to open up.) N Julia asked Frix to perform too so they did this day. And like usual, they're great like best and they really cheered the crowd. We enjoyed them to the fullest :)
In the night, I watched Iron Man 2 with Ichel and her family. I feel shy to be in this situation.

6th May 2010. 4th Week G-Center's Regular Class ; My Sis's Birthday.
Nice day where Lia joined our class the first time. And my sis's birthday. Happy birthday :) In the night, I mixed the song for final till 3 A.M. Then sleep. It's crazy.

7th May 2010. Practice at LM Homebase.
We practiced for 2 hours and it's real tiring like crazy. The choreo for Tick Tock is somehow complex and confusing and I din really get it. In the night I was prompted to mix the audition song but it's not really bad.

NEXT DAYS AFTER THIS POST (ABOVE THIS POST)

Tiring Weeks.

Now every week there is dance competitions.
2 weeks I performed with Petra 5's dance team and I'm so proud.
I enjoy being with them.
Last night practiced with AOG Crew n just got home at 12 o' clock.
Nice day, I was outta home for 18 hours.
Today was HiLo Dance Competition.
TTP rocked the house.
Frix as well (sadly Suri's pants went down and it must be extremetely embarrassing)
Takupaz....well ya know.
Takupaz took 1st place.
Well, again.
Oh yeah, surprising thing.
The mystery is still there to reveal.
Sooner or later, we will know the real truth.
Streetdancers should fight honorably.

It's Obvious Now.

Yesterday had fun with Mia and the whole crew.
We placed the 3rd place, with embarrassment from UK Petra.
Congratz for Fratz and Frix, you were sooo cool and entertaining!!


If I take a look in my previous videos (they're in my FB lo ^^), from my first dance competition (UC Cup), Worm Performance @ KKR Paskah with the new videos.. They're totally different. The difference is really clear. Not detail to detail, nervous to not nervous, no totality to totality, half power to power. It's getting better from every aspects :) I used to put this in my mind, "Everyone's skill will not get better. It's like that since the first time and depending on born-talent the most." But now I know it's wrong. It's obvious now..
Everyone is getting better from their EFFORTS.

Well, after knowing I get better I won't be satisfied. I'll try and keep hard working to be a better and better STREETDANCER.. ^^

Right Motivation? Dunno..

In school, there was KKR Paskah. It's really nice and I dunno why, but I can feel the family feeling here in PD Team a little now. It's comfy to be with them, even though I don't know all of them well. And when the KKR began, I started getting crazy in musics following the choir's moves, dancing ndangdut like crazy. Haha.. I wanna fulfill the purpose: "To make God smile, and scatter my passion to the people around." So then I tried to be a nice servant for Him.
And then there's a short movie. About a father, who's really close with his beloved son. They'd sleep together, and watch stars.. Really, they are close with each other. Then one day, his son accompanied him to work as a bridge guard. His job is to raise the bridge when a ship below is about to pass. And then suddenly when a ship is passing by. A train came too fast than expected. His son is the first to saw the train, and screamed to the father. Then the little boy ran to the middle of the bridge, and fell to the engine. and then the ship passed. now's the train. The bridge is still hanging up. The father now is given 2 choice.. To sacrifice his son for the people in the train, or to save his son and let the train crash. He cried, and cried. The train is coming near. And..*Clang* He pulled the lever. His beloved son died of the bridge's pressure.. Months later, he worked in the station. And he saw a little boy with his mom.. And he recalled his conversation with his son..
"Dad, can you see that star?"
"Where?"
"The one in the north sky.."
"The shining one?"
"Yeah.."
"That one.. When you see it, that means someone is thinking about you."
"Really? Then now, who's thinking about me?"
"Me.."
Really after the movie I cried. Tears flowing rapidly.. It's been a long time since I went through this kinda moment. Like God sacrificing His Own Son for us.. Huahh.. I mustn't do bad things again > < Back to Streetdance.
I went to UKP and 2nd accompanied me. It kinda boils me. Everytime I see 2nd's face sometimes I get really mad. I always get this bitter flashback.. Bitter memories.. Then my mood will drop. So I tried to keep my look away. Luckily Patty came and rescued the day. So we waited for our performance. Then we performed with some LM guys watching. C-Style, Smoothie, D-Phobia, Belmot, Pete Tic.. Yeye too. And Frix was there already. God.. Luckily I did my best n din forget the moves.. ^^ But one of my crew forgot some in the locking part. Well, that's forgiven. It's a 3-day learn :o And then Kak Sem told us about power.. I shoulda lower my power more. (Kak Sem called me "Rere" on stage.. Haha) Then about blocking.. And so. And after that, Frix performed and it was funny like crazy. More on Carla. Hahaha.. Crazy girl. Then Ko Adid, Ko Nico, Ko Peter, and CARLA freestyled. Carla did a sexy freestyle.. Hahah.. Then Kak Sem and Carla battled n it was so romantic.. Ngiakakakka~ And then P5 n Frix were called to go battle. Here I did my bad n din enjoy the beat.. The song is IMMA BE and I know I can't stand BEP songs =< The result.. BIG 3!
Nice one..
Hope I can do the best tomorrow with the right motivation.. ^^

COPYCAT WARNING!
Please stop copying. It's my own mind and please use your own mind. It's my own feeling and use yours even though it's similiar. Please let me show my style and you show your style. No one wants to be copied.. I hope you understand.