HEART SPEAKS FIRST by Travis Garland

This is a realy nice song.. So romantic like dang..



Standing on the other side of the road
With a tear in your eyes
Wishin' that I didn't act the way I do
I took it too far this time
I was filled with emotion
Instead of giving you space
I threw it in your face, and now
You just wanted me closer
But I pushed you away

I made you scream
I made you cry
I shouldn't have taken the stars from your sky
We're still a team
As much as it hurts
Remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first
So baby whenever it hurts
Remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first

It's hard for me to function when I know you're sad
Like a robot in rain
And even though the hurts we feel was all my bad
It still drives me insane (It's making me crazy)
Do you know that I love you
That I need you to be there
Like a table needs chairs, my love
After all that we've been through
Please don't let it all slip away

I made you scream
I made you cry
I shouldn't have taken the stars from your sky
We're still a team
As much as it hurts
Remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first
So baby whenever it hurts
Remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first

And it's telling me to
And it's telling me to love you
Love you

And it's telling me to
And it's telling me to love you
Love you

(Telling me to love)
I made you scream
I made you cry
I shouldn't have taken the stars from your sky
We're still a team
As much as it hurts
Remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first
So baby whenever it hurts
Remember that they're only words

Remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first..

AOG Crew, Evolutioning.

On Saturday I went to PTC and met up with GPS but only me, Atin, MP, Andrew, Devina (+Yoko +Bobby) and we chatted about Ko Musa's birthday the following day. It was so fun to be with these guys.. We're like crazy everytime we're together. Haha

Then when the night came AOG Crew guys arrived and we talked about real business. About the future AOG Crew. Then I thought like, amazing! A lot of changes will occur.. So people, wait for the new us! >:)



Yesterday we came to Studio GHP and hid at Tresor Building. The plan's a bit messed up cuz Ko Musa, like usual, cancelled the practice all of a sudden in spite of fact that we're there full team. (+ Devina Popcorn Crew, actually.) But he then actually came and we're glad to see his smile. It's fun.

Have a blast, Ko Moeza Limantoyo Minute!


Okay I'm now busied with PenSi, SNA School, and Jesjos's Sweet 17, as well as upcoming Della Hunara Sweet 17th. Let's manage time well, because UAS is on the line too >___< God, please help me do them well.. I'm trying to change and keep learning and learning to become a great streetdancer. Really, I have to maximize this potential! AOG Crew..Nah, the upcoming new crew of mine..haha.. 3 Months again or so, we will give you a BLAST.. Each one of us. >:)

Now I can feel calm, because you can stand and try to fight them. Jiayou! I will support you :)

Chasing my normal LIFE~!

Oh yeah.
Today I found another copycat. It's when I open his profile that I found my text there, 100% same! Oh God, it's a simple text, but he copied it. He's older than me. Mehn, you're a joke copying from kids. Haha.. Well, what I think is.. When people copy you, they think you're cooler. And it means, you're steps forward from them. Just relax. Haha.. Copycats, get creative please. For your own sake.

This Is A BIG day.

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Okay, so much VITAL things has happened in my life since the last time I udpated this blog.
My life has changed so much after the Mighty Men Camp and the PD Team fellowship.
I opened my ace card to my parents. I'm letting my Lord sit in my comfort zone, and letting myself kneel on the floor, because my life is not for me, but for Him.
I'll do my best to give all of me for Him.
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After 2 months of crazy and harsh practice, this day finally came.. SATOE.
The day we, GPS, PopCrown, Interlude Dance Academy, and LMSC will perform on the stage of Petra 1's auditorium. It's a huge day for us.
We'll dance to show Indonesia that we should be ONE! United with difference.

Along the practice, it's hard. It's tiring, we gave A LOT of sacrifices.
But along the road, we met new friends, funny moments, and laughter.
We thank God for He has made us ONE.

We'll dance, we'll give our best on the stage.
No holding back. We'll DANCE FOR SATOE!
B-FABS, let's give it all back to Jesus.
For SATOE, for INDONESIA, for our LORD.


KAMI DISINI,
SATOE
OENTOEK
INDONESIA

I REMEMBER by Keyshia Cole

Oh..
Remember..
Oh, I remember..
I wanna know..

Where were you when I said I loved you?
And where were you when I cried at night?
Waiting up, couldn't sleep without you..
Thinking of all the times we shared..

[Chorus:]
I remember when my heart broke..
I remember when I gave up loving you..
My heart couldn't take no more of you..
I was sad and lonely..
I remember when I walked out..
I remember when I screamed I hated you..
But somehow deep inside still loving you..
Sad and lonely..

No one knew all the pain I went through..
All the love I saved deep in my heart for you..
Didn't know where I would go, where I would be..
But you made me leave..
And plus my heart it just, it just kept telling me so..

[Chorus]

[Bridge:]
There was nowhere else to go, oh..
Nobody else to turn to, no..
For the rest of my life, I promised myself I will love me first genuinely..

[Chorus]

I remember when I walked out..
I remember when I gave up loving you..
My heart couldn't take no more of you..
So sad and lonely, hey..
I remember when I stormed out..
I remember when I gave up loving you..
I was sad and lonely..

It's Holiday.

This is the first day of the Lebaran Holiday. This far, I haven't feel the holiday feeling, I'm still downed by the UTS schedule. I don't understand termokimia at all, and my physics and math are messed up! Arggh.. I wanna scream to those teachers.

I'm learning sexy hip hop now. I download sexy hip hop beats a lot and try to learn much vocab and  the soul. Busy at allstar for pagelaran and creating a concept for Pensi Petra 5 2010. Let's rock the shows. :) I wanna learn hip hop and won't stop.. Get better and better! God please help me to learn humbly..

I get bad mood easily these days. Mostly from my family and school. Narrggh I need to break free from everything.

Some Things I Haven't Tell.

After my birthday, on Saturday the O-O-O-O Crew performed at Pam2's Sweet 17. Twice. 1st on the opening with the O-O-O-O concept (which we already used a thousand times..haha) and the second before disco time, the HO-HO-HO-HO concept (a new concept I made with the help of my friends). It's really fun dancing there, mostly when we do the second dance. We put the Keong Racun music inside the concept and it was fresh and fun. I felt so excited and amused with my own concept. Really, I should create more for the Pensi :)
After the dance, we went to disco time and we went all crazy and wild. There's PD Team seniors there but I don't wanna be two faced so I did all the sexy dance. And after the disco time we knew that Garry's Blackberry Bold lost.. Felt sorry for him.

Last Saturday, 4th September there was a freestyle community like the 7 To Smoke at Singapore. They carried it out at Mr Child Cafe, 3rd floor PTC every Saturday(i think). AOG Crew went there with Bella, Devina, Grego. And AOG + Grego joined the hip hop freestyle session. There were many b-boy than hip hop dancers so the hip hop-ers were only us, Grego, Koko Takupaz, and the one named Kevin. Then I rushed things like usual and got tired fast. It was a big mistake and a bad habit for me. Erick is cool as usual with his soul, instinct and a lot of vocabs. Gosh I must find my vocab a lot too. Then the session ended with me battling Erick and Erick as the winner and he got power balance band. At the end, I started to relax a little, but my vocab still wasn't going. So now I must start to take everything to be a vocab. And take soul and the flow when freestyling. Let's learn and practice more. :)

The Most Amazing Birthday Of My Life This Far.

This day was so special starting from a special surprise from El'Cief (My Class, the Eleven Science Four). Suddenly on the subject Arts, the lights were turned off. And Lui, with the teacher and those guys pretended to show some interior designs example, considering what we were learning. Then suddenly the studs on the back told me to look front. Then a video was played. It was an astonishing, meaningful, precious, and amazing video of me. Lui made it so nostalgic and it almost made me cry!! Aaaaa.. It showed the photos of me. How I love dance, how I love fashion, how I value my friends and family.. Then they gave me a box to open. I opened it and it was a cake made out of paper with "16" on it. Then Onel gave me a wallet. And they forced me to do a 4 minutes freestyle and so I did! Narrgh.. Crazy guys!! Thanks a lot guys, you're the best! It made the day my most awesome birthday.. :) Then Priska made a t-shirt for me to wear..made out of Matahari's plastic bag. And the hair accessory oso. And everyone signed on it.. It's like a MOS for me. I must wear it till school ends. Hahaha..When the second break came, Indra suggested me to stay in the class and suddenly after some minutes he turned the lights off. Huruhara Family came (excluding the OSIS members) and gave me a birthday tart with candles. Ooh it was so romantic hahaha.. Thanks a lot, Huruhara!!! Love ya freaks!!
Then after the break, suddenly Lui, Andre and the others closed my eyes tight wif Lui's jacket. And they walked me all around the school like crazy! They even tricked me like they told me to pose for a photoshoot, when I was facing a wall! Yet I did it innocently. Crazy dudes.. Hahaa.. Then after a really long trip (Meanwhile that time, I always wish to open my eyes. It's dark and not fun. Haha..) they brought me to the computer class, where we actually have to be in and after they pulled of the jacket I can see slowly waiting for the lights to cover my eyes and there's a pan of pizza with candles in front of me.. God it's so sweet. I really never have expected a birthday like this for me.. When I think about it again it's triple times amazing! THANKS EVERYONE!

Then the evening came and I went to Sutos with a package(Virgin said it's the way to say "set of wearings") of a red shirt, my new gray vest, and my white pants. The dinner was on My Kopi Cafe, a new cafe set up in front of Tator. At the beginning of the dinner, Ichel suddenly told me that she, Erick, and Juju couldn't come 'cuz they're so tired and things after the practice. Then I ask about Chachia, about her being the only AOG member inside my Huruhara friends. Then the conversation ends with her saying "Seneng2o mbe KONCO YEL2MU!" and then I got pissed and asked her blindly "Opoo tulisane mbo gedeno?" Then she answered about whatever and I said "gpp kok" and I got mad. Then my mom asked and I told her about everything and she told me not to get pissed so easily cuz it might be a prank. And Chachia too, told me she's gone shopping with her mom. Oh God! Then Ichel n Juju's status was about them three going to PTC and watch movies and I started to feel weird. Then HuruHara came and they told me it might be a prank and in the middle of the dinner.. Juju's loud scream "HAPPY BIRTHDAY RERE!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY RERE!!" made me laugh. AOG Crew came with Patty(who told me she couldn't come because of a lesson -_-), Tante Cindy, Ivan, Tante Siany, Gio, Hans. Huahaha.. They really made the Kopi Cafe shocked. Then I knew that my mom's actually the one who's been coordinating this creep. Haha! Then we dined and took photos.. And the day ended.

It's nice to have people who loves you! Love them and they'll love you back :)

Thanks a lot mom, thanks dad, thanks El' Cief, thanks Huruhara Family, thanks AOG Crew.. :)

Dance, Dance, Dance! Oh Boy.

Normal life isn't really that plain boring and isn't that hard, Thank God :)
I got busied with school. And dance too.

There was going to be a competition in school. We practiced (Me, Lia, Sydney, Xin", Kezia) but then it was cancelled. So I arranged a dance club for our school, and we're gonna practice every Monday. It's not an official club, just a club we created for high school competitions.

I accepted a job from Virgin to remix a music for her group's school assignment. I was in a hard time at first, but thank God I did it. And I have to re-remix it with traditional music. I dunno if I am gonna teach them or not. I enjoy this job :)

Last Thursday was a big day for me. There's no events, only AOG Crew practice. I was totally anxious and crazy before the practice. Vivi din attend the practice. So I didn't have an anxious friend with me! Then I was really nervous to do freestyle in front of AOG, as usual. But that time, I really wanted to fight that feeling, cuz if I keep being like that, when will it ends? So I fight that feeling. Physics exercise with Devina, then freestyle session. I tried and gave my best and I din really nervous. Thank God I could overcome it!! It's really a big step for me! But there's no Juju and Ichel so we oughta try and see later.. I hope I'll keep being better and better! :)

I was picked to be in the Allstar reguler for pagelaran.. Thank God!! I must give my best!! >:)

Last night was Chel's sweet 17. I became a polo with the Huruhara Family excluding Sydney and Patty. I paired with Lia, Killa-Indra, Ikegh-Iyus, Yoan-Trio, Bunga-Berto, Codot-Bapet, Aenx-Nyoman. We practiced for only two days, and we danced in the party. It was fun and elegant. I like ballroom dancing,, It was my first time, though. TTP performed here.. Two teams. Then the disco time gone crazy with people getting thrown into the pool. Garry, Chel, Lia, Pian, ME!, and Trio. It was fun though.. Hahaha :D I really enjoy the party. The foods, the friends, the dance. Happy Super Sweet 17th Birthday, Chel ^^

This afternoon I did the Exam for Beginner level in G-Center. There's only 15 studs. It's a remidial since me and Lia didn't attend the Exam in PTC. Well, I hope we gave our best. Intermediate waiting! :)

Pam-pam's sweet 17 job waiting.. Let's cheer the crowds again ^^

The Huruhara Family.

DBL's over. There's a lot of precious experiences, along with the fun moments. It's really a grace how we advanced 'till Big Five. Our hard work is not a meaningless hard work too. We're proud to take Petra 5's name this far, We won't want Petra 5 to be taken easy by the other school. As well as for our boys and girls basketball team. They played amazing enough. Well, this year we count on Him in everyday.. I hope it's not only for the DBL period but oso 'till the end of our lives.

The most unbelievable moment is the girl's basketball match Vs. SMAN (2 or 1, I forgot). There's 3 seconds left to the end of the match, and we'd lose to them. (The score was about 19-17)> Then God made that 3 second (even half a second accurately) precious when Lauren did a winning three-point shot. And God shows us, how valuable time is, Even half a second is extremetely valuable. :)

For our yel-yel team, The Huruhara Family.. We did a lot of breakthroughs and surprises.
When we battled with CH, we were mentally down the day before. We were afraid of Juju and Ichel (Especially me, considering I lack of self-confidence everytime I freestyled with them). They're cool as usual. But in the end, we overcame it and danced well. The cheers of the crowd made us forgot that minder feeling.
And then we actually got to Top Ten. Our girl's b-ball team lost to CH, which made them stop at Supersweet Sixteen. Then our hope was only the boys b-ball team, and our Huruhara Family.
The day before the boy's match with Sinlui at Big Eight, it feels like a huge WAR. The whole school was prompted to support. School created a team of like, yel-yel leaders to be firing up the passion of everyone in supporting the team the day after. I BM and smsed all PETRA students and alumni (I said PETRA, cuz the team's the only winning team from all Petra..) to support in presence or in prayer, and told them to forward that message as well as praying at 9 o' clock, like our basketball and yel-yel team always did.. I was really fired up and it seems like a real war.
Then, the day came. We prayed and prepared like crazy. We knew everyone says that we won't win to Sinlui. And even every of our friends outside Petra supports Sinlui.. Well, I think we won't know unless we tried. Then again, it can be different if you want to. I told everyone NOT to trust and to lose to prediction, our GOD is bigger than predictions. Then the time came. 6' o clock.
1st period, we were 3 scores above them. We smiled and then, the second period made us startled. How Sinlui beat us extremely.. Then it's Huruhara's time to settle. We were going to make Sinlui see what we got. Then the battle started. Sinlui's girls provoked our team and it made our team members got pissed and forgot to control their emotions. Fell into provokes, we finally could only bust three sets of 4. I din get the chance to go freestyle there. The heated arena made us forgot that we should get back to our sides. Then when we were in our side already, the Sinlui girls kept provoking us and I finally got pissed too. We threat them but they can only imitate. Everyone saw that moment of fight and Lauren and the other girls told us to stop. We fought like kids there. And finally Trio and Ikegh told the DBL officer to warn them cuz they stood inside the basketball arena, which is a harm to DBL's rules. The officers can only stood like nothing, but they warned us back there! Or they changed the rules in days? What a joke. Then we kept fighting with Sinlui from the sides.. And the b-ball match ended with Sinlui winning. I was hoping miracles to happen in the last period like they did for the girls but they didn't. But we know God has a purpose, and a greater plan for us. :) So we didn't cry there.. But I was still crazily pissed off in home.
Along 'till Saturday, we felt like we wanna settle things with Sinlui. Then Trio told me that Sinlui's boys (the girl's boyfriends) were going to challenge us to a battle. Here, "us" means me, Trio, Lia. But it's actually not dance battle.. But real fight. Crazy them, whatever they'd do we don't care cuz it's at their own risk. But the family told us not to walk around alone since it's risky so we did. That day, we din dance with our best. We were tired and some of us had their own problems. We thought we din get the chance to get to Big Five but we did! We cried cuz we never thought we'd be getting this far.. And we reconciled with Sinlui girls. So there were us, Sinlui, Fratz, Stag, and SMAN 1.
The last day, the day of Big Five, we danced with new concepts. jabba masks that we added since Top Ten, a gay concept of Gary and Trio which made people laugh and we got the passion, locking, and a puppet concept. Wowie, we danced really enjoyfully.. We were happy to the max, we gave the real best :) Then we din care if we'd advance to Best Three or not.. And we really din advance to Best Three. I was disappointed of a team that entered Best Three in spite of the fact that everyone said they're plain boring.. But whatever, we're a champ enough :) For Fratz, they're cool as usual, crazy solidarity, and crazy jokes.. They're really worth being a champion as they did! Basketball, girls and boys, and the yel-yel team became a champion in DBL 2010. Wowie, they're amazing!

So we're back to our normal lives as a student which is..boring and made us sad cuz we din get the chance to be together everyday and besides, we have to follow school lessons which we skipped alot! Dang, hardwork needed.. Haha..

A song that we sang after the Top Ten and Big Five.. A grattitude for Him who gave us everything..

Terima kasih Tuhan, untuk kasih setiaMu
Yang kualami dalam hidupku
Terima kasih Yesus untuk kebaikanMu
Sepanjang hidupku

T'rima kasih Yesusku
Buat anugerah yang kau bri
S'bab hari ini Tuhan adakan
Syukur bagiMu

No more practices, no more makeups.. But still a FAMILY. :)
Huru....HARA HARA HARA!! Rawwr~! >:)