A nice day..^^

Today I did the tests very well. Actually, the past tests were very well too. Maybe b'cuz I studied seriously. Haha.. My laziness gone le..^^ And now become closer wif fwenz.. And back to my sms-freaker life. Haha^^

Today went TP wif mom n dad. Otw to Izzi, i met my dad's fren from malay wif his daughter. Then we eat together like a family. Her daughter is a XI grade student of Gloria High School. Wow, I admire that school too *-* We ate together and she said that she just had a hunch about wanting to eat in Izzi when she's passing by, and suddenly mom n dad invite them to eat together b'cuz they think they'll waste much Pizza. Perfect match. ^^

Sydney dreamed about me n' Onel playing PS, the PS broke n then Onel smash it, and I krumped it wif "lentik" style. Hahah ^^ And daddy's gonna help my fren's problem. I hope he can do it so get happy again..^^

I realized and feel that I really love u these days. Really love u. I miss your shoulder to sleep on.. ^^ I really miss u .

Sorry 4 everything .

Gomenasai. I must have been a great burden for you. My bad attitudes.. Being a bad boy to you, hurt you, everything la. I think I'm still a kid and I haven't understand how to show love. I'm still a stupid boy in a matter of feeling.. But u know what? U teach me alot of things.. Real lot.. ^^ How to have a feeling, how to bind myself to a promise, how to keep the feeling of your love, how to be a leader, how to be loyal, how to be a good boy, and mostly, u gave me A HEART. Now I'm not empty anymore.. Since I know u, my life is different. Really changed. Meeting u was a real coincidence.. And I'm grateful for that^^ For a really silly moment when u add me.. When u walled me for the first time.. And I feel like, "Hey, what's with this person?? --. " Haha.. That just feels so silly right now.. Now I have u, and you have me. I'm all yours, hun. All yours. I'll be loyal and I'll do anything to make u smile.. Cuz u entrusted me with your heart, so I'll keep it. Happy 4 months.. ^^

Since When I Can Feel So..Sad ..?

"Gray lullaby, painful melodies.. Brimming in soul endlessly, radiating a weak smile.. Although hurts inside.."


Nanana, nananana, nanana.
Nanana, nananana, nanana.
Nanana, nananana, nanana, na.
Na, na, nanananana..

Differ and distant ?

"I feel like it's different. Maybe it's fading. It's growing distant. I don't wanna lose it, this is all because of me.."




I feel so distant and fading. Is the love..酥软? Now I'm the one getting closer, and it's getting further? No.. I don't really want that to happen. But even if it does, it's all the consequences i should take. That's all because of me. How to show sorry? Just don't ever show negatives.. Even if it's still feels peculiar and hurting when I think of it.. It's just a 情, a stupid 情.. It's painful to think of it.. I don't ever want to lose this love. 对不起..样样..

Music ..

"Music records memories, they do. And sometimes, the feeling recorded in the melody comes back.. A soul in the music cries and call for that feeling.."



You used to call me your angel. .
Said I was sent straight down from Heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms
I loved the way you felt so strong. .
I never wanted you to leave. .
I wanted you to stay here holding me. .

I miss you. .
I miss your smile. .
And I still shed a tear every once in awhile. .
And even though it's different now. .
You're still here somehow. .
My heart won't let you go. .
And I need you to know. .
I miss you. .
I miss you. .

You used to call me your dreamer. .
And now I'm living out of my dream. .
Oh how I wish you could see. .
Everything that's happening for me. .
I'm thinking back on the past. .
It's true that time is flying by too fast. .

I miss you. .
I miss your smile. .
And I still shed a tear, every once in awhile. .
And even though it's different now. .
You're still here somehow. .
My heart won't let you go. .
And I need you to know. .
I miss you
I miss you. .

I know you're in a better place, yeah. .
But I wish that I could see your face. .
I know you're where you need to be. .
Even though it's not here with me. .

I miss you. .
I miss your smile. .
And I still shed a tear, every once in awhile. .
And even though it's different now. .
You're still here somehow. .
My heart won't let you go. .
And I need you to know. .
I miss you
I miss you. .

I miss you. .
I miss your smile. .
And I still shed a tear, every once in awhile. .
And even though it's different now. .
You're still here somehow. .
My heart won't let you go. .
And I need you to know. .
I miss you
I miss you. .


Rest peacefully, soul. That person's not in my life anymore. I won't love that person anymore, and I already have my own angel. Back then as an angel.. Now protected by an angel.. So, u don't need to cry anymore, Missing Soul..

同一個遺憾 ~*

"Tell me she knows.. Cause don't think so.. 愛上了同一個遺憾.."

Like this feeling.. Sad and happy, worky, competey, busy.. Mixed feelings.. ^^ Mixed things are good.. Just like Sushi or Mixed Grill on a plate.. Ahaha.. ^^

Really wanna sit on a mountain and watch the sky together.. And shout this to the stars..

我 很 愛 你, 大 哥哥 !*

ばげろ !!

"Stupid lips, puny lips.. Stupid you, puny you.. Can't get to understand, seems to be so foolish. IF YOU WANT SOMEONE TO DO THINGS YOU LIKE FOR YOU, DO IT FOR THEM FIRST.."

I just wanna be really alone. Maybe if I can going to a new and empty world, I will just take a few friends. Maybe person like Edward, Virgin, Onel, Hadi, and more importantly, Sydney. She's my closest fwen and she's really an easygoing person. I wanna start a new life, just wif dem. Only dem. They're different for me.

I wanna get amnesia and forget about all the past things. Really wanna start my life from the beginning. Knowledge can be a painful truth sometimes. So, I wanna erase my memories, and gain new ones.. I hate being with persons I don't really like. I wanna be like a baby again. Getting to know people.. Learning them.. I wanna be a completely different me.

まいど わたし 見る あなたの よこがお o FB, わたし しめた 貰う oった. 彼らの 名称 副 sつぴdBCorP! わたし wa嫉妬して !!! わたし 知る わたし 言う わたし WON'T, BUT I'M A HUMAN LIKE U TOO. I WON'T TELL THOUGH.

ともだち, ともだち .

"Life's getting more complicated, huh? I feel that 5 months ago is a lot better than now. Shiny little hopes of a cool high school life.."

Yesterday I went to Gramedia Expo, there's a food bazaar there. But wen I reach there, they din allow me to go in 'cuz I wear short pants. What a silly rule, but whatever. So I went to the bookstore and I browsed for stationeries. Then I saw some bags, so I bought one for Sydney's birthday present. She used to wear a black and boyish school bag, so I bought the cream-colored n' girly style one for a change :)


Then I went to eat at Ayam Malioboro.. It's all new from me. This was the first time I eat ayam bumbu telur asin. Ahaha.. I took a few pics of me and the new T-shirt that my fwenz bought for me. Thanks a lot, guyz. I like it :o


I told mom and dad about how Nello and me has such weird coincidences. 'bout we were on the same Kindergarten and being apart on low school, met again on high school without knowing each other at first time. And about how we were on the same Christian side-school together, and we joined the same piano competition when we're on low school, how we met in Singapore, Sentosa Island on cable car. It was all so funny.. Just like soulmate (that's what my friends always say). Haha..

The night I juiced some pete to blast on Sydney.. She likes pete so much these days, so I choose pete for the thing. And today the plan din work really well, but at least it gives her a nice memories..and a nice pete perfume. Ahaha :D