Hey. I'm Back.

God I miss this blog.

This blog has the most awkward times in my life. Yes, it's a blog of a little boy. But I never regretted those awkward moments. It's a part of my life, and I know it's gonna be wonderful when the story's whole.

Life Ink. Why did I name it this way?
I guess I didn't know why, but I'm starting to get it.
Life has thousands of colors. It's a wonderful painting when you color it right. And the right colors are your own colors. You can't paint with other's colors. It's not original. This is me and my journey to color it the right way. This is my life's ink.

Continue the story?
a) Yes.
b) No.

BLOG MOVING!

I moved to this blog.

ひっそり L I F E _ I N K . 2

and i use this one as well. This one is for putting inspirations, wants, needs, style, everything I have in mind. :)

吴春馮 The Unshown Scraps.

Thanks for readers. From now on, I'll not be using this blog anymore. I love you. :)

I Have My Heavenly Father.

Hi everyone! Long time no posts, huh? There's been some busy weeks back there.. Well, guess I'm back, huh? :p

First of all, almost 70% of my life has changed. Well, first I got a chance to leave that person, and then I finally left. Blocked on Facebook, Twitter, and everything. Long story short, we're fully apart. Well, it seems like I broke my promise but y'know, I'm just keeping it down for a while. I am chasing a normal life, and in order to do that, I must forget the memories completely for a while, focus on the other things, and after the rehab is over, I will come back. Then, it wouldn't be the wrong way. Well, I think I'm wrong for leaving you. But you know, if you're down and you need someone, I'll surely come. I'll be there. :)

Then, I fell into some temptations, again. But just then again, I feel so sick of it, and I promise and I WILL leave them. Now, I am focusing on chasing what's in the front. I won't bother with the past. I have HIM, my Heavenly Father. It's a not-very-long story actually. I have a friend, he has a vision gift from Him. He can see angels and devils and people's memories and feelings and so? He told me everything. And he told me what he saw. Well, he already knew about my terrible past. When my other bestfriend told him, "Rere had a dark past", his gift made him see a "thing" or two. Then I was told, that I have a huge deep-wound-in-the-heart or tartaness(kepahitan in Bahasa) devil around me. That's what he saw. Then that I fell into my bad past, because I didn't get enough father figure.. Well, I had some quarrels with my worldly dad since I was a kid, but was it that bad? And he said, that tartaness cause is that I was hurt by someone I deeply love. Guess what? Yeah, you.. But calm down now, I said I'd forgive, so I do. 'Cause I love you, remember? Well, okay let's just get rid of this devil. If I keep thinking about the hurting memories, it will just make it bigger. So let's just be happy all the time, okay? Heavenly Father, I know You'll accompany me. ^^

Well, I watched Narnia and then I knew He's watching over me, taught me a lot when I was watching the movie.. And I cried and I guessed I really miss Him. I watched it twice, and my tears were always forced to come out when Eustace said something like "No matter how hard I try, I can never do It myself. Then He came to me. He changed me. It was painful, but it felt good. Just like a needle on a finger. It's painful, but it's good when it's pulled off.", and the second scene which made me wanna cry is when Lucy asked "When will we meet again?" and Aslan answered "Someday, my child." Oh God.. I guess I miss You.

Now, I occasionally search for Him since my friend from PD Team, she's younger than me, she's on 10th Grade, told me that He wants me to search for Him by praying and reading Bible a lot. I guess I should and will do it. :) I wanna share everything I feel to You, Dad. And I wanna tell everything I wanna tell. 'cause You're my Dad. My worldly dad can't give me comfort like You do, having You made my life amazing. I wouldn't have to worry about anything as long as I do what You told me to do. Thanks, Heavenly Father, Lord. :)

Well, there's a lot I wanna share about the movie Narnia: Voyage of The Dawn Trader, I will post it later on ••REI'S • MADPRINCE GUIDEBOOK•• .

Oh yeah, in case next year (2011) you find no more updates on this blog, and you waited for years for it but don't find it no more (amazing), I should have been moving to this new blog of mine called 吴春馮 My Life Without Wings.. It's my officially new blog that will start on January 2011.
New year's coming. This year felt extremely fast, right? -__-
New year, new life, new blog. ^^
Well, see you around.

The Memories Will Be Just Memories.

I opened our memories, pages by pages how we know each other. How you say you love me so much that you can't live without me. How you always care for me, protect me from those beasts, and cried for me. That's sweet. ^^ But that time I made it a waste, I was so ignorant to you, and I put ego on my own feeling. For that, I'm sorry.. When I cheated on you too, it must be painfully hurts for you, I must bring a hell into your world, I'm sorry.. I feel grateful for everytime we shared, you gave me a ton lot of lessons, how to love, how to be caring, how to lead people, and life's harsh experiences. And now you're making me learn to hold on and not fall into my feeling, not letting it fall into the same mistake again, not letting my most precious wish, knowing it's bad, become reality.. It's the most important lesson for my life.. ^^ I thank you for being the vessel for it.

Now it's time to live our own life. Apart from all those sweet bits, but it's the right way and how it should be. We have to give all of our life to Him, to accept His grace. I erased almost all of the underground people from my facebook that I found, so that I will be fully free from that world. And I hope you'll leave and be free soon as well. Because I don't want you to go to the wrong way, because I really and deeply love you.. It's not right to have this feeling, and I'm gonna make it a right feeling, a more "proper" love. As we're apart, I'll find someone to replace your place, and I hope you find the right one too.

SLUIMH, so damn much..
Let's move on. :)

Trying To Be A Lot More Separated, To Be Alive.

Now I don't really bother paying any attention to those people. I wanna be alive, and how I can be is to be apart from them, the past. Just days ago, I fell in the missing feeling again and I shouldn't next time. I told myself I need them but you know what, I'm still something, even MORE without them, I can! At least that's what I believe. I'm not a doll, I'm not a robot that should get power supply from them. I'm mature enough and I should be more mature. No more thinking about the past. I'll always try to distract my mind of them. There's so much to think about other than those things. Let them be a stupid old song and later will really extinct. Besides, those people seem to be too lazy to get up, especially 3rd. Mehn, looks like that one gave up trying. I am enough of telling too, or I'm not? I can only pray for them.

Final exam today, math? I can't do much. It's a mess up! The next subjects, I don't wanna mess them up. Okay, banzai!! I don't wanna be lazy like this, c'mon get up man! But it's hard to ;p

Today I hung out at PTC with Yoko, Bobby, Grego, Jose, and Atin. We watched HP 7 Part 1. It was so great and epic! I met a lot of friends at PTC. As well as that blabbermouth guy. And he's starting to create a lie that I hate again today.. God, please give me wisdom and patience to talk with this guy. I mean, mehn he's like lying over every single things! How I hate it. I should talk wisely to him. He should be made realize the right things, really. Let everything be as good as ever.. I actually never wanna take care of this thing again, but mehn, I feel sorry for my friend.

Okay, that's all I wanna share. Adios :)

A Man of Covenant.

Last nite I hung out wif 3rd. I lied to my mom about going with a guy named "Stanley" to "Jesslyn" 's birthday party. Mehn I actually din need to lie, but the condition forced me to! Stupid me, then I regret it all along. We got something to eat and went to TP. And something's been bothering me along, and mostly after I got home. It's something hidden that I don't know, and now I don't really wanna know at all. :/ Bad community breaks good habit. That's what I got from Ce Cory this morning. It's a blessing :) This morning I felt so bad and I already admit to my mom that I lied last night. I feel like I'm an anti-lie now..haha Then my mom told me next time we should go out at least with another one person along. Okay I think she's right for my own sake.

This day I am blessed by the words Ria shared in the morning. OMG today's full of blessing. After school there's a PD Team meeting and we prayed, we sang, and God's presence were really there even though there's only 8 of us! God, You're amazing..

This is a generation where satan makes recruitment, and God as well. God only asks of who WANTS to join Him. To be His knights, His heroes. God, let me join.. Come on people, Indonesia will be the place to begin this movement as the prophecies said! A huge wave of healing throughout the world will start from Indonesia, and every major Christian people is praying for our country. Let's make that prophecy happen.. Let's fight the evil! Come on guys, there's no time for you to still be in the comfort zone. Prepare to fight, for His Glory!

HEART SPEAKS FIRST by Travis Garland

This is a realy nice song.. So romantic like dang..



Standing on the other side of the road
With a tear in your eyes
Wishin' that I didn't act the way I do
I took it too far this time
I was filled with emotion
Instead of giving you space
I threw it in your face, and now
You just wanted me closer
But I pushed you away

I made you scream
I made you cry
I shouldn't have taken the stars from your sky
We're still a team
As much as it hurts
Remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first
So baby whenever it hurts
Remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first

It's hard for me to function when I know you're sad
Like a robot in rain
And even though the hurts we feel was all my bad
It still drives me insane (It's making me crazy)
Do you know that I love you
That I need you to be there
Like a table needs chairs, my love
After all that we've been through
Please don't let it all slip away

I made you scream
I made you cry
I shouldn't have taken the stars from your sky
We're still a team
As much as it hurts
Remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first
So baby whenever it hurts
Remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first

And it's telling me to
And it's telling me to love you
Love you

And it's telling me to
And it's telling me to love you
Love you

(Telling me to love)
I made you scream
I made you cry
I shouldn't have taken the stars from your sky
We're still a team
As much as it hurts
Remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first
So baby whenever it hurts
Remember that they're only words

Remember that they're only words
My heart speaks first..

AOG Crew, Evolutioning.

On Saturday I went to PTC and met up with GPS but only me, Atin, MP, Andrew, Devina (+Yoko +Bobby) and we chatted about Ko Musa's birthday the following day. It was so fun to be with these guys.. We're like crazy everytime we're together. Haha

Then when the night came AOG Crew guys arrived and we talked about real business. About the future AOG Crew. Then I thought like, amazing! A lot of changes will occur.. So people, wait for the new us! >:)



Yesterday we came to Studio GHP and hid at Tresor Building. The plan's a bit messed up cuz Ko Musa, like usual, cancelled the practice all of a sudden in spite of fact that we're there full team. (+ Devina Popcorn Crew, actually.) But he then actually came and we're glad to see his smile. It's fun.

Have a blast, Ko Moeza Limantoyo Minute!


Okay I'm now busied with PenSi, SNA School, and Jesjos's Sweet 17, as well as upcoming Della Hunara Sweet 17th. Let's manage time well, because UAS is on the line too >___< God, please help me do them well.. I'm trying to change and keep learning and learning to become a great streetdancer. Really, I have to maximize this potential! AOG Crew..Nah, the upcoming new crew of mine..haha.. 3 Months again or so, we will give you a BLAST.. Each one of us. >:)

Now I can feel calm, because you can stand and try to fight them. Jiayou! I will support you :)

Chasing my normal LIFE~!

Oh yeah.
Today I found another copycat. It's when I open his profile that I found my text there, 100% same! Oh God, it's a simple text, but he copied it. He's older than me. Mehn, you're a joke copying from kids. Haha.. Well, what I think is.. When people copy you, they think you're cooler. And it means, you're steps forward from them. Just relax. Haha.. Copycats, get creative please. For your own sake.

This Is A BIG day.

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Okay, so much VITAL things has happened in my life since the last time I udpated this blog.
My life has changed so much after the Mighty Men Camp and the PD Team fellowship.
I opened my ace card to my parents. I'm letting my Lord sit in my comfort zone, and letting myself kneel on the floor, because my life is not for me, but for Him.
I'll do my best to give all of me for Him.
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After 2 months of crazy and harsh practice, this day finally came.. SATOE.
The day we, GPS, PopCrown, Interlude Dance Academy, and LMSC will perform on the stage of Petra 1's auditorium. It's a huge day for us.
We'll dance to show Indonesia that we should be ONE! United with difference.

Along the practice, it's hard. It's tiring, we gave A LOT of sacrifices.
But along the road, we met new friends, funny moments, and laughter.
We thank God for He has made us ONE.

We'll dance, we'll give our best on the stage.
No holding back. We'll DANCE FOR SATOE!
B-FABS, let's give it all back to Jesus.
For SATOE, for INDONESIA, for our LORD.


KAMI DISINI,
SATOE
OENTOEK
INDONESIA