I REMEMBER by Keyshia Cole

Oh..
Remember..
Oh, I remember..
I wanna know..

Where were you when I said I loved you?
And where were you when I cried at night?
Waiting up, couldn't sleep without you..
Thinking of all the times we shared..

[Chorus:]
I remember when my heart broke..
I remember when I gave up loving you..
My heart couldn't take no more of you..
I was sad and lonely..
I remember when I walked out..
I remember when I screamed I hated you..
But somehow deep inside still loving you..
Sad and lonely..

No one knew all the pain I went through..
All the love I saved deep in my heart for you..
Didn't know where I would go, where I would be..
But you made me leave..
And plus my heart it just, it just kept telling me so..

[Chorus]

[Bridge:]
There was nowhere else to go, oh..
Nobody else to turn to, no..
For the rest of my life, I promised myself I will love me first genuinely..

[Chorus]

I remember when I walked out..
I remember when I gave up loving you..
My heart couldn't take no more of you..
So sad and lonely, hey..
I remember when I stormed out..
I remember when I gave up loving you..
I was sad and lonely..

It's Holiday.

This is the first day of the Lebaran Holiday. This far, I haven't feel the holiday feeling, I'm still downed by the UTS schedule. I don't understand termokimia at all, and my physics and math are messed up! Arggh.. I wanna scream to those teachers.

I'm learning sexy hip hop now. I download sexy hip hop beats a lot and try to learn much vocab and  the soul. Busy at allstar for pagelaran and creating a concept for Pensi Petra 5 2010. Let's rock the shows. :) I wanna learn hip hop and won't stop.. Get better and better! God please help me to learn humbly..

I get bad mood easily these days. Mostly from my family and school. Narrggh I need to break free from everything.

Some Things I Haven't Tell.

After my birthday, on Saturday the O-O-O-O Crew performed at Pam2's Sweet 17. Twice. 1st on the opening with the O-O-O-O concept (which we already used a thousand times..haha) and the second before disco time, the HO-HO-HO-HO concept (a new concept I made with the help of my friends). It's really fun dancing there, mostly when we do the second dance. We put the Keong Racun music inside the concept and it was fresh and fun. I felt so excited and amused with my own concept. Really, I should create more for the Pensi :)
After the dance, we went to disco time and we went all crazy and wild. There's PD Team seniors there but I don't wanna be two faced so I did all the sexy dance. And after the disco time we knew that Garry's Blackberry Bold lost.. Felt sorry for him.

Last Saturday, 4th September there was a freestyle community like the 7 To Smoke at Singapore. They carried it out at Mr Child Cafe, 3rd floor PTC every Saturday(i think). AOG Crew went there with Bella, Devina, Grego. And AOG + Grego joined the hip hop freestyle session. There were many b-boy than hip hop dancers so the hip hop-ers were only us, Grego, Koko Takupaz, and the one named Kevin. Then I rushed things like usual and got tired fast. It was a big mistake and a bad habit for me. Erick is cool as usual with his soul, instinct and a lot of vocabs. Gosh I must find my vocab a lot too. Then the session ended with me battling Erick and Erick as the winner and he got power balance band. At the end, I started to relax a little, but my vocab still wasn't going. So now I must start to take everything to be a vocab. And take soul and the flow when freestyling. Let's learn and practice more. :)

The Most Amazing Birthday Of My Life This Far.

This day was so special starting from a special surprise from El'Cief (My Class, the Eleven Science Four). Suddenly on the subject Arts, the lights were turned off. And Lui, with the teacher and those guys pretended to show some interior designs example, considering what we were learning. Then suddenly the studs on the back told me to look front. Then a video was played. It was an astonishing, meaningful, precious, and amazing video of me. Lui made it so nostalgic and it almost made me cry!! Aaaaa.. It showed the photos of me. How I love dance, how I love fashion, how I value my friends and family.. Then they gave me a box to open. I opened it and it was a cake made out of paper with "16" on it. Then Onel gave me a wallet. And they forced me to do a 4 minutes freestyle and so I did! Narrgh.. Crazy guys!! Thanks a lot guys, you're the best! It made the day my most awesome birthday.. :) Then Priska made a t-shirt for me to wear..made out of Matahari's plastic bag. And the hair accessory oso. And everyone signed on it.. It's like a MOS for me. I must wear it till school ends. Hahaha..When the second break came, Indra suggested me to stay in the class and suddenly after some minutes he turned the lights off. Huruhara Family came (excluding the OSIS members) and gave me a birthday tart with candles. Ooh it was so romantic hahaha.. Thanks a lot, Huruhara!!! Love ya freaks!!
Then after the break, suddenly Lui, Andre and the others closed my eyes tight wif Lui's jacket. And they walked me all around the school like crazy! They even tricked me like they told me to pose for a photoshoot, when I was facing a wall! Yet I did it innocently. Crazy dudes.. Hahaa.. Then after a really long trip (Meanwhile that time, I always wish to open my eyes. It's dark and not fun. Haha..) they brought me to the computer class, where we actually have to be in and after they pulled of the jacket I can see slowly waiting for the lights to cover my eyes and there's a pan of pizza with candles in front of me.. God it's so sweet. I really never have expected a birthday like this for me.. When I think about it again it's triple times amazing! THANKS EVERYONE!

Then the evening came and I went to Sutos with a package(Virgin said it's the way to say "set of wearings") of a red shirt, my new gray vest, and my white pants. The dinner was on My Kopi Cafe, a new cafe set up in front of Tator. At the beginning of the dinner, Ichel suddenly told me that she, Erick, and Juju couldn't come 'cuz they're so tired and things after the practice. Then I ask about Chachia, about her being the only AOG member inside my Huruhara friends. Then the conversation ends with her saying "Seneng2o mbe KONCO YEL2MU!" and then I got pissed and asked her blindly "Opoo tulisane mbo gedeno?" Then she answered about whatever and I said "gpp kok" and I got mad. Then my mom asked and I told her about everything and she told me not to get pissed so easily cuz it might be a prank. And Chachia too, told me she's gone shopping with her mom. Oh God! Then Ichel n Juju's status was about them three going to PTC and watch movies and I started to feel weird. Then HuruHara came and they told me it might be a prank and in the middle of the dinner.. Juju's loud scream "HAPPY BIRTHDAY RERE!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY RERE!!" made me laugh. AOG Crew came with Patty(who told me she couldn't come because of a lesson -_-), Tante Cindy, Ivan, Tante Siany, Gio, Hans. Huahaha.. They really made the Kopi Cafe shocked. Then I knew that my mom's actually the one who's been coordinating this creep. Haha! Then we dined and took photos.. And the day ended.

It's nice to have people who loves you! Love them and they'll love you back :)

Thanks a lot mom, thanks dad, thanks El' Cief, thanks Huruhara Family, thanks AOG Crew.. :)