I Have My Heavenly Father.

Hi everyone! Long time no posts, huh? There's been some busy weeks back there.. Well, guess I'm back, huh? :p

First of all, almost 70% of my life has changed. Well, first I got a chance to leave that person, and then I finally left. Blocked on Facebook, Twitter, and everything. Long story short, we're fully apart. Well, it seems like I broke my promise but y'know, I'm just keeping it down for a while. I am chasing a normal life, and in order to do that, I must forget the memories completely for a while, focus on the other things, and after the rehab is over, I will come back. Then, it wouldn't be the wrong way. Well, I think I'm wrong for leaving you. But you know, if you're down and you need someone, I'll surely come. I'll be there. :)

Then, I fell into some temptations, again. But just then again, I feel so sick of it, and I promise and I WILL leave them. Now, I am focusing on chasing what's in the front. I won't bother with the past. I have HIM, my Heavenly Father. It's a not-very-long story actually. I have a friend, he has a vision gift from Him. He can see angels and devils and people's memories and feelings and so? He told me everything. And he told me what he saw. Well, he already knew about my terrible past. When my other bestfriend told him, "Rere had a dark past", his gift made him see a "thing" or two. Then I was told, that I have a huge deep-wound-in-the-heart or tartaness(kepahitan in Bahasa) devil around me. That's what he saw. Then that I fell into my bad past, because I didn't get enough father figure.. Well, I had some quarrels with my worldly dad since I was a kid, but was it that bad? And he said, that tartaness cause is that I was hurt by someone I deeply love. Guess what? Yeah, you.. But calm down now, I said I'd forgive, so I do. 'Cause I love you, remember? Well, okay let's just get rid of this devil. If I keep thinking about the hurting memories, it will just make it bigger. So let's just be happy all the time, okay? Heavenly Father, I know You'll accompany me. ^^

Well, I watched Narnia and then I knew He's watching over me, taught me a lot when I was watching the movie.. And I cried and I guessed I really miss Him. I watched it twice, and my tears were always forced to come out when Eustace said something like "No matter how hard I try, I can never do It myself. Then He came to me. He changed me. It was painful, but it felt good. Just like a needle on a finger. It's painful, but it's good when it's pulled off.", and the second scene which made me wanna cry is when Lucy asked "When will we meet again?" and Aslan answered "Someday, my child." Oh God.. I guess I miss You.

Now, I occasionally search for Him since my friend from PD Team, she's younger than me, she's on 10th Grade, told me that He wants me to search for Him by praying and reading Bible a lot. I guess I should and will do it. :) I wanna share everything I feel to You, Dad. And I wanna tell everything I wanna tell. 'cause You're my Dad. My worldly dad can't give me comfort like You do, having You made my life amazing. I wouldn't have to worry about anything as long as I do what You told me to do. Thanks, Heavenly Father, Lord. :)

Well, there's a lot I wanna share about the movie Narnia: Voyage of The Dawn Trader, I will post it later on ••REI'S • MADPRINCE GUIDEBOOK•• .

Oh yeah, in case next year (2011) you find no more updates on this blog, and you waited for years for it but don't find it no more (amazing), I should have been moving to this new blog of mine called 吴春馮 My Life Without Wings.. It's my officially new blog that will start on January 2011.
New year's coming. This year felt extremely fast, right? -__-
New year, new life, new blog. ^^
Well, see you around.