Back To Normal High School Life !!

Tomolo will go to school.. Will have fun .D But hate the assignments..arrgh. Well at least freed from problems.. .D

Will study much for future.. Really wanna take part time jobs in a cafe or sumthin. Huhu

Like This Quote So ..

"Control your feeling, don't let it take control of you."
Really.. Will do .
Feelings are unpredictable and way out of our knowledge.. Do what is certain .

Guesser like me ..

I blacklisted u on my phone, so that I can't read any of your messages. But today, something weird happened. Your sms broke through the barrier and reached me! I read it.. 2 of them.. And I made some crazy conclusions.. [wrote them on facebook notes] just guessing.. Psychology-minded me, always guessing and making conclusions by my sighting and feeling. But this time, I won't be fooled that easily. I made a fatal and clearly wrong conclusion with u, and I won't repeat it again. Ur mind.. I can't seem to read it. Why..??

Breaking Promise ?

U break promise ? I won't. I'm not a weakling. Fall into the hands of feeling .. Life's more than just a feeling. Strong people is the one who can control himself..and his feeling. It's hard, but I'll struggle for it.

Ionated My Hair ..

Again, I make my hair so smooth.. Cuz i din really like my rough hair ./ It looks good.. Haha ..

Works .. Works ..

Have to work as a home servant along this holiday .. Phew .. I'd rather be going to school. It's boring like this .. T-T Besides,, at school, friends will help me forget. .D

Flying Away .

I'll leave u for awhile. Don't worry, promise is still a promise 4 me. Take care de zai jian.

Not Telling ?

Don't worry. Know it myself. Fooled myself back then. But now realize. Faking. Now revenge. Fake smiles, show on. Will do, slowly. Grow distant. Distant and amnesia. Better. Wanna scream. "621311 2518 !!!!!" Damn. Won't change. Me. No melancholy. Poems. Again. Argh. Try guessing? Conclusions? Dead ends.

Feeling Distant ..

Hoping it will turn this thing around. I know what I must do. Just fly away..^^ Linger for awhile.. Live for a strangers smile.. And hope it is enough.. I must let it pass..

Two steps back is just what it need Not knowing that it's <3.. That makes us free So I'll be brave and retreat.

Cause I will let it go. Fly away.. I know it's not fair, missing precious hours, precious days.. But I hold on enough, and it seems like it'll be ok if i let it pass. Even if knives hurts feeling. Relax, I'll be ok. Just have to wait alone for another to lean on. Just go. Attention? Then do it. Conversations kills me..

Haha .. Hahahahaa .. Not really me!! THIS IS NOT REINHARD. Melancholy ?? ARGGH

Phew ..

Problems solved. Now I can relax.. But still liking the emo feel though. Haha.. Addicted to emo ?? Hmm.. Dunno.. Just feeling calm.. :)

Waiting ..

Now we're apart. No smiles on me. Waiting for smiles to come .. someday.. ^^

Not What I Really Want ..

This is not what I really want. I want us as a real siblings.. Where I can accompany u anytime u need me.. But this past three days.. Ure so disgusting that I don't really wanna meet u. Saying I'm number one and the only one.. Promised that I'll be the last.. But flirt with others. Just like a hermaphrodite bitch. Not different from your ex-couple. I thought ure different from the other. Ure not different.. Like those lame dogs..

Once again, I got fooled by the thing called love. I dunno how much time I fell like this.. Stupid me.. Always think that sum1's gonna be different. The truth is, EVERYONE'S THE SAME. LOVE IS A FAKE THING. But still loving u in my heart.. Though I don't show it.. Arggh..

Real? Dream?

It's blurred into reality. Everything I dreamed of. It's now in my hands. But the feeling of the dream, the feeling I struggled for. Vanished into thin air. It doesn't come out. All this reality. It feels so fake. Like I cheated in this game of life. Maybe it's sin? Yeah.. Sweetest sin. Hate, love.. It feels so empty. I want the dreams. I want the reality. It's just like hot and cold.. I want hot. When I get hot, I want cold. I just wanna forget everything.. Start my life from the beginning ..

Scribble From My Heart ..

X not being the real X. All this time acting that stupid. All this time acting that childish. Embarrassing. Grown up? Fooling X self. Not real. So stupid. Wanna change, but afraid. Afraid of losing smiles. Afraid of loosing social links. Arggh.. Dunno what to do. What's the real personality? What's the original X like? X just can't wait and hope that what people say is right. Soon enough when going mature, everyone will recognize their true self. Who, what, and where they are. Now just need to shut ..

Uwaaa.. Long Time No Online leh ..

3rd September 2009.
I collapsed at a hospital where my step-grandma rest, Its actually a funny experience leh wkaka .. I just feel so nauseous and then i walk aimlessly to the door. When I try to open the door, i fell to the wall beside the door and my head hit the wall. Everyone was so panic but i myself laugh haha .. I actually experienced sumthing like tis the 2nd time, but last time before this i din collapse. It was at a crematory. Always like this.. Hospital.. Crematory .. I just thought that the underworld is gonna eat me from below. Arggh.

5th September 2009
The church's dresscode today is harajuku ! Wow.. This is what really rocks. Haha.. I started to mix and match as soon as i heard the news. I wear a S&K t-shirt, caviar, black down-striped pant, an army belt and a studded white burberry belt, and my unicorn converse shoes. And to add the harajuku silly thing, i put on my shoelace, the starry one around my waist. haha .. But it's cool yoh.. xD I love this day.

6th September 2009
I found my senior in a disc store. He worn a real harajuku long pant with iron stripes around it. His hair stays like that, what he calls "[his nick] hairstyle". Whew.. I just want my hair to be long enough to be cut harajuku and to ion it again. Uwaaa... And about the wearings.. If i only had the tools to show my potential .. Ughh ..