Real? Dream?

It's blurred into reality. Everything I dreamed of. It's now in my hands. But the feeling of the dream, the feeling I struggled for. Vanished into thin air. It doesn't come out. All this reality. It feels so fake. Like I cheated in this game of life. Maybe it's sin? Yeah.. Sweetest sin. Hate, love.. It feels so empty. I want the dreams. I want the reality. It's just like hot and cold.. I want hot. When I get hot, I want cold. I just wanna forget everything.. Start my life from the beginning ..