Holla, Holiday.

Walking without looking back too much.

Last week AOG Crew practices with just me, Erick, and Chachia. It's fun just the three of us. We'll joke and laugh along the practice. Well, we're bonding closer :) Then we compete on Saturday where I wasn't a professional dancer. I was an emotional dancer. Even when I danced, I thought of what expression I should make up. Damn, it's such a bad dance. Erick and Chachia danced with real joy. In the night, I was sad and in the next day, where I should dance again, I was angry in the car, then my dad exploded in the morning and I was like, "This isn't my dad! This isn't my family! I'd rather be outside home!".. Yeah, that's what I thought all this time and that's just what I always think. Then my dad knew that I had bitterness from my mom and dad. And I don't really know if it's right. All I know is, I always can't fit in with my dad. But now, I have to really control my emotion. They're my parents, I have to be a real kid.
In the night, I danced with real joy, Chachia and Erick told me they enjoyed it better yesterday but blah, I made up for them this day. Maybe in the beginning, there's a little "distraction" like yesterday, and yeah, my emotion was a little bit fired up but whatever, I wanna dance here, that's my purpose of being on the stage. And I'm a professional dancer as I should be :)
After the dance, I went home and when I was about to sleep I read a disappointing statement and gosh.. Good thing I din hope too much. I think she's with another and let's just forget. Good thing I din put all my damn feelings.. And now let's just focus on dance and school. I wanna be a great hiphop dancer. I wanna be an good highschooler. Love just makes me weak. Hip Hop helps building me stronger. :)

Today I practiced for DBL Yel-yel and my left back muscle got screwed and it's hurt to move. Oh well, now I got weird muscles and don't forget the blurry eyes. Aaaaaaargh... Heal, heal, heal!
In the practice Pian told me that he saw that I'm not all out in my dance with AOG, like I'm minder of the others. I think no, but there's actually a little piece in my mind saying so. :/

What I really want now is to cut my hair (My sis told me to cut like Alan Luo, and I said yes. But I want the front hair to go down, like what it used to be.), then I wanna buy Supra or NikeAir shoes (I don't want it to be full white, but Erick told me it's dancer's but still, I want it to be mixed with another color -_-). I wanna learn sexy hiphop too! It's fun, you know. I think I have the soul.. Haha

24-29 June I'll go to Bali for a holiday. I hope it's fun with those siblings. Sometimes I don't fit in with them. Holla, Holiday :)