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Sunday, June 28, 2009

CP Loss .. Blank Choreography ..

Friday, 26th June . I dropped my cellphone on the taxi . Din realize at all . Wen home, juzt realized sumthing missing . But don't really bother with it . This day's sen crew practice at the empty room near my house . We din do anything . Just wait for Jojo to remix the music . I took hard time making the choreography . Saturday and Sunday .. Maybe 2 days is enough :)

Saturday, 27th June . I din make any choreography this day . My mind's full of my family problem . It sucks .. And I can't stop worrying about it . I just sleep, and wen afternoon come, i really wanted to go to school's farewell party . But I havent dyed my hair black . Really regret it . But the evening at g.walk, i felt relieved that I told my problem to one of my friend . I used to feel rather shy . It's a really dull problem .

Sunday, 28th June . Still haven't found any good choreography ! Owh man . Just find a bit . Maybe this is really not my work . Why not just call choreographer ? Arggh .. Fees and fees .. Jesus, help me make a good choreo .. :(

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Dunno la ..

I just wanna sleep .. If I can set the time, for a week .. Really wanna refresh my mind ..

Friday, June 12, 2009

Errors ..

Sorry, i juz realize tat the date in tis blog is a failure . The posts's dates are actually a day before the actual date i post it ! So for xample, if the post date here is Monday, 5th June , I actually posted it on Tuesday, 6th June ! Gomen yoh .. Althou not mah fault :P

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Lust .. Love .. ?

The day b4 yesterday i've been forgetting my sum1 . I din feel any love again . Not rememberin everytime . But den, yesterday after we met again,, It feels so crazy . The feeling is boiling again . Huh .. That sum1 really is hot .. But i think its just rather lust, not love . Hmm .. Yah . No love searches just for kissing . I only wanted da kissing . But dat feeling is strong too . Hmm .. I just dont noe now who i really like . Hoo~

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Life's gettin screwed n screwed ..

Yesterday i got into a problem wif my parents .. I actually acted normal and took it easy, but all of a sudden my dad got pissed and blasted lyk crazee . The last thing he said is dat he won't allow me to practice dance anymore . After he said dat I got really pissed too n' ol the day i locked myself in mah room . Shit .. What a freakin day .

Im completely lost dat day .. I think dat it's the end of my dreams.. They ruined my life ! Im just a boy wif no talents..except this dance . Without it im surely a nerd at school . A boy who cant do anything . And now dey forbid me to dance . Jesus, I really need Your help ! They olweys mad n yell at me for tis and tat .. They said they know me . But the truth is, dey don't know anythin about me .. My flaw .. My real suffering .. But its not deir fault, i'm the one who shoulda been more open to them ..
I really hate my dad yesterday ..

Thursday, June 4, 2009

ByE Bandung ~

2moro will dpart at 10 to ma hometown,, so 2nite will sleep erli. Say goodbye to bandung, all of the tasty food[i love them but im afraid ill go fatter and fatter], all the warm people, the unique fashion town ..

Here I learned so much thing hmm .. Memories, loves [waddya mean --"], all the cool hangout places [especially Paris van Java/PvJ]. Whoa a wish a can go holiday here wif my frenz . Hmm .. Wonder wen . haha

Packed all da things .. Hmm wads left ? Gudbye 2 tis sweet blush pink sony laptop ~ Ahaha.. Tis is ma sister's . 2moro get home meet ma old toshiba laptop . Hmm..I'm kinda bored wif dat thing =/ Will change later lah if I finished sum dance performance . Hehe .. Meet Vodka too, meet my sister ribka, meet my mum, my servant, da new replacement servant, blah3

But I think tis is useless .. Wha must a write tis ? Im goin back here on about 20 July, dats wha mum said . Haeehh .. Better sleep lei~

Shorties ..

Got my hair cut . It's a little too messy n' dry . When I got home I wash it . And I see a really short hair . Wah,, must wait till it grow long so it get cooler '-' . "The best harajuku hairstylist in Bandung" ? Bah .. I think shinjuku will do better =/

Smile ~

tomorrow me got haircut . wan an extreme but not too weirdy harajuku haircut . will cut at the most popular harajuku stylist in bandung . hope will be good =)

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Screwed up life .

I feel real empty now .. I mean, nothing to clap about my life . It's like a desert . No love, no real fun .. I feel like a dead body .

Since I was born, I dint have normal talents like other boys generally do . I dont do well at sports [except for swim and athletic run] . Therefore, i dont really interested in watching football, knowing basketball scores, and something like dat . It's like too corny for me to watch . When my friends talk about dem i could just shut up cuz i aint gonna blow my stupidity . I can just talk about my one and only talent . Dance, dance, and dance ..

When I got this dance talent at about a year ago, I really have fun with it . I thought, this is the thing that can make my life alot more fun . Cuz I feel special with it . In my school, just a few can do streetdance . But when I see the world out there, I'm not that special . A ton of "normal" people do better than me . Then I went down again . I'm nothing special .

Then, I always try to make my appearance as cool as I can . I change my appearance often . I style my style differently and uniquely . That way could cover my flaw, I thought . So I used most of my money for style . Hair, clothing, eye lens, accesories, and all of em . I thought it's enough . But it's never enough . A week after I change my appearance and look at myself, I always feel it's corny . Then, my friends seems like they see me normally . It sucks . Beside, there's alotta cooler ones out there . Hmmh .. My face isnt born for this . Without my sofltlenses, i think I'm just an ordinary normal boy with nothing to show off for . From this I learn ..

Somethings in this world is unchangeable . Whether u try to do tis do tat, even if it really made differences, it'll reveal the old sides .. Always . Old sides remain .. The covers are temporary . But the change is constant . So ..
The only thing that remains constant in this world is change ..

➝ 1st post..hmm.

I wrote this regarding yesterday, 1st June .

Last night I slept at about 3 . So I ended up waking up at 11 . Whew.. Then I went to pick up my older cousin at her campus, just me and my aunt . It felt a little cold along the way, but she filled
the talk offering any food stall we passed by . She's like forcing me to eat tis n tat . Wow .. No way if I turn fat like some years ago .. In fact though, I've already turned fatter >:( Along the my breakfast [breakfast at 11 o' clock] i got busy checking out my clothes in front of the mirror . It felt tighter since I grow fatter . Haha

Then we went to ciwalk . Aunt dropped me and her here . Hey,, I've been here before . First sight, the Gothica Shop . It sells goth and emo stuffs . My favorite, huh ? Let's buy the Terminator Salvation tickets 1st . Hmm.. Then I bought some kawaii stuffs at Purezento Stall . Oh yah, the movie ..
It's mentioning salvation, judgment, the end of the world tis and tat . Man, it sucks .. Not really a good movie :/

The night, we went to The Valley, the coolest restaurant in Bandung . It's located on mountain a little far though . I've been waiting for this moment .. Eating the dream-like Zuppa Soup ! Yumm~ We took photos as we eat . The people sitting a couple benches next to us laughed really hard almost every second . It's crazy, but i envy them . They're a lot older than me, but they can enjoy their life to the fullest . Not like me, programmed for emo life tis and tat /.o

I was almost throw up on the way home . Then I got a thought of my dance for awhile . I haven't dance for a month or so . Missed it so much :( Then my pop called and told me to go home on Friday . What ? Hey I promised to attend the City Warrior dance lesson on Wednesday ! Nah way .. I missed it about three weeks in a row and always said the same thing to the tutor [I'll come next week ! ^-'] and now absent again ? Talk about junk ..

And now I'm having a conference call with 3 of my friends . I dint plan it like usual . Jojo called me first . Then Michelle, then Patty . I'm a little bored..hmm. Jojo kept forcing me to take Patty back as my girlfriend . Nah way . No feelings . I should concentrate on the other girls in line .. =)

Whew .. 4 o' clock and I'm still awake . It's my wake up schedule for school days -__-" Tomorrow I'll wake up really late .