This Is Me.

Today I watched Camp Rock (Sydney told me to watch it) and it has a really deep meaning that bangs my soul. About her being not real to people and cover what she is shy about.. It's totally me. And then the way she admits the truth and she gets to higher ground.. It really hits my head.. And this song is playing in my soul.

"I've always been the kind of boy
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say

But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be,
This is me

Do you know what it's like
to feel so in the dark
And to dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way


This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be,
This is me"

It's so deep and meaningful for me.. And it's all about me.. I have to break my limit if I wanna be "the guy". I don't wanna be a bird in cage just for the rest of my life, I have to move on. From now on, I'll try my hardest not to pose or disguise.. I wanna show everyone what and who I really am. It's all about Reinhard, and his style.

And about my story, it's not that I don't love you anymore. It's that I don't wanna love you. It's enough. Thanks for acting like you care, and trying to make me feel like I'm the only one. But I know that I'm not the only one. You've got thousands of love, even if you say they're just as close as that. But no thanks, it's too itchy for me. Well, that's my itchy level. And if you think it's too low, go get another guy. Just forget about the promise "We'll be the last". I don't really care if it means breaking promise or things but I think it's worth it cuz I'll try to forget everything about us and our story. Just..forget about it. I'm tired of this hanging thing. You don't really care and so I am. Live our own happy life, shall we? I won't be a burden and you won't be my burden. [enigmaside-rei.blogspot.com]