At Least I Still Have You .

Today I feel so alone. I feel so indifferent, so angry that I stayed away. And then I din even talk much with Onel. At sport time, I sat alone, weeping about my sad life. My life.. Such a sad story that haven't found the happy parts again, can be said. I'm waiting for the happy parts of my life.. ^^ Too much thinks I've thought these days.. A LOT of bad things. And I really have to get hold of them. I have to enjoy my high school life, and my real life once again. Not weeping under it like this. I wanna break up this wall and go surface to the fresh air.. Where I can see the light and enjoy my life in any part.

I know that I've been so stupid all along. Being sensitive and losing heart like this. I think on my own desire and feel on my own desire. No. I mustn't be like this. I wanna go back to my normal life. The normal Rei who lives and has big hopes even though the reality isn't like this. I must see with eye of hope, not only the eye of reality. And then do things accordingly.

Normal Rei, please come back.. Don't be like this anymore. I don't wanna lose everything.

And even though now I don't really have anyone, at least I still have you..
Even though I hurt you much, you still stay beside me.
If you wanna go, so be it but you don't..
Thanks for everything . Sorry for everything .

我爱伱~*