You Know.. My World Changed A Lot.

Seeing my world now and how it is just a week before.. It's totally different. Last week and before my life is full of High School things (and it's scattereeeed..!) and Streetdance. Yeah, I performed with AOG Crew in Bima Restaurant. It was not really nice cuz I can't control my emotions, feelings, and power.. My freestyle is half bad too. Later on, I'll do it right. I'll take control of them. AOG Crew featuring Chorcel Minute.. Ce Chorcel is a nice and fun tomboy girl and it was a great experience dancin' wif her =].

Last week when I'm lonely someone came and just whoosh! Erased my loneliness. And showed me the way outta it. And just then.. Made me turn my heart.. And then, what the gypsy girl said became reality.. "Just when you're going to the 3rd Heart.. The 2nd will rise again and you'll be entangled wif everything. It's your decision to choose the third or second.." I never thought it's this fast. The 2nd heart come and we reconciled. Just then.. When the 2nd heart knows that I have the 3rd Heart, the 2nd angry wif me and the 3rd heart protected me and I cried..a lot. Then the 3rd heart took me to go elsewhere and cheered me up along the way. I dunno but I feel comfortable wif the 3rd.. The 3rd told me that has never found the right people, and I wanna make myself the right one.. Dunno if I can't, but I'll try. But the 2nd.. I still consider as my closest sibling and I won't want to go away. But 2nd told me to choose and I really can't. 2nd..3rd..2nd..3rd.. No way I won't choose. Let it flow naturally. For now, I think my heart goes for the 3rd.. I don't want to disappoint the 3rd..

Yeah, love story dominates my day, my everything. I don't really have the time to chat with frens and things! I need them.. Maybe I should get more refreshed with them. I don't want to just put my life in this love tale.. Yeah, now my life is like fairytale, just like it. Told so perfectly.. Protect and be protected, to choose one love, to be entangled, to love and be loved, to believe and be believed.. Nawhh. Don't turn mellow, rei..

Today was my first experience of photo modeling. Yeah, HBS Dance Crew's Highstreet Fosho Hip Hop Store made me one of their apparel model.. ^^ It was really nice.. I hope this modeling thing can expand.. Not just streetdancing, I love fashion too and I love to be photo taken.. ^^ I got nice 3 t-shirts from this session. Yeah, thanks God You give me a chance to do these things.. ^^

I remember when I'm with 3rd and this song played and i smiled to myself that time. It's so deep meaning for me..


Vierra – Rasa Ini

Ku tak percaya kau ada di sini
Menemaniku di saat dia pergi
Sungguh bahagia kau ada di sini
Menghapus semua sakit yang kurasa

Mungkinkah kau merasakan
Semua yang ku pasrahkan
Kenanglah kasih

Reff :
Ku suka dirinya, mungkin aku sayang
Namun apakah mungkin, kau menjadi milikku
Kau pernah menjadi , menjadi miliknya
Namun salahlah aku, bila ku pernah merasa ini


When.. When 3rd told me 3rd loves me.. I may not believe so fast.. And I won't want to have a really strong feeling too. More, 3rd will stop being like this shortly.. And i won't want to get hurt. And if I'm just a person to make 3rd forget about 3rd's past hearts, I won't want it. Plus, I don't know 3rd really well just yet.. To believe is hard right now.. Everything is never as it seems..